Hopefully with more years behind me this will become easier. I just keep thinking that my family will wake up and say "oops, we were mistaken, we do love you".
"You may say that I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one" : )
Capn Jack
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Hindsight is 20/20
by Capn Jack ini have been watching this website for a while and havent posted much, but i have gained alot of insight into my own head and life.
i was born jw and pioneered and all that good stuff, didnt get out until i was 23. didnt know what to do so i started drinking and using all sorts of illegal substances.
i would talk all night to people about the 'dubs and how f****d up they are, probably bored alot of people.
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Hindsight is 20/20
by Capn Jack ini have been watching this website for a while and havent posted much, but i have gained alot of insight into my own head and life.
i was born jw and pioneered and all that good stuff, didnt get out until i was 23. didnt know what to do so i started drinking and using all sorts of illegal substances.
i would talk all night to people about the 'dubs and how f****d up they are, probably bored alot of people.
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Capn Jack
Yeah, the funny thing is, to help me get sober, faith was important (not in god, but in something). That was kinda ironic I though.
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Hindsight is 20/20
by Capn Jack ini have been watching this website for a while and havent posted much, but i have gained alot of insight into my own head and life.
i was born jw and pioneered and all that good stuff, didnt get out until i was 23. didnt know what to do so i started drinking and using all sorts of illegal substances.
i would talk all night to people about the 'dubs and how f****d up they are, probably bored alot of people.
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Capn Jack
Hello all,
I have been watching this website for a while and havent posted much, but I have gained alot of insight into my own head and life. I was born JW and Pioneered and all that good stuff, didnt get out until I was 23. Didnt know what to do so I started drinking and using all sorts of illegal substances. I would talk all night to people about the 'dubs and how f****d up they are, probably bored alot of people. I blamed my family and my wifes family and the congregation. I was pissed for a long time. Well eventually I ended up in the nuthouse from my drinking.
So now I have been sober for over 1 year, and I get to look back at it all in hindsight. It seems like the guilt and blaming worked for then, but now I just cant live my life that way anymore. Sure I can point the finger, but if I want to move forward I have to look ahead and be accountable for my part and learn from the whole mess. Dont get me wrong, I still get pissed all the time reading things on this site, or talking to my brother or mom when they will talk to me. I have also learned alot about life.
What I am trying to say is that now I can see where I was involved. I stayed until I was 23, even though I stopped beliving the "truth" long before that. That was such a valubale life lesson, being able to stand up for what I believe for th FIRST time, in spite of all consiquences. I am sure alot of you can relate to the high felt after leaving. I learned life doesnt always go my way, but I always have the option to change my situation. I learned that some people are willing to sacrafice family for faith, and thats their right. I hate it, but I had my part, and I am looking for that now.
I am looking for other peoples experience, how they made peace with their "past life". I am tired of sitting in that s**t and not growing. I dont want to have brutal images appear in my head (I have thought very deeply of what I would like to do to some JW's) every time I hear through the grapevine what my family is saying about me. How can we grow and move forward. Thanks for listening.
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Annoying JW Buzzwords...
by Confucious inhey guys, .
was just wondering what is your worst jw buzzword.
probably all of us hate the "just leave it in jehovah's hands.
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Capn Jack
I remember I used to get freaked out by this one
"The Society" doesent that just sound creepy. Big brother is watching